didnt know if i should be blogging at such unearthly hours, but i still am now anyway. HAHA.
yes, as you can see from the time, lydia is not sleeping when she should be. because, she's used to sleeping so late! yes, excuses again. oops!
anyway, today can be considered a day of rest. in the end, i didnt study and was sleeping through most of it. from
4am to 3pm
and 5 pm to 7.30pm+.
yess. must be too tired from sleeping at VERY UNEARTHLY hours + the stress i am facing. so if you see me today, dont comment on my panda eyes okay. somehow i dont like it when people do. ohwell. who wld like it? -shrugs-
i'm really glad that i kept to my promise this week. it was quite a feat you know. 6 whole days. what kept me going was me telling myself
"just live through this day by day" and i found myself surviving. albeit feeling tired but nonetheless, i did it! *pats on my shoulder* of course, because many many people helped me along! :) and
God who's always here for me.
for studies, i didnt know i was that stressed, until today. felt this really big burden on my heart and i cld not figure out what caused it. til i spent time with God and through that, He showed me that i was indeed, putting a lot of pressure on myself knowing
and unknowingly.
shocking but true. lydia was stressed about her studies! (something i thought dont really happen to me, if you do know me you'll know why)
this year is my last year in poly. perhaps that is the reason why things have been so stressing and all. all of us (i believe) wants to end our last year in poly with a
bang! and maintaining or
otherwise improving our scores.
resulting in... our really
chiong mentality. -nods- the environment can really affect how we all behave sometimes.
i guess, i need to rmb God's words to me.. and learn how to live my life to please Him alone. sometimes, the praise of others is really precious to us.
but shouldnt we yearn
even more for the praise of
God? the creator of the universe, the heavens and the earth. mmm. a thought worth pondering about. :)
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