you know... i feel really horrible sometimes. like, i havent been doing what i should be, or not having enough time for everything. i think.. my time management needs serious improvement!! =S

feeling that i'm getting more irresponsible. like, not attending some lectures. hai. and somewhat worried that my friends will be worried tt i wont do my projects. oh well. cannot blame them for worrying too, since i've been like.. yea.

it's time for me to get my priorities right. YES. okay... i shall try >< haha.

mmm. wed night, was the most hiong for me. was super tired from school and my dad wanted me to visit my grandma. was really like.. dying alr, but he kept asking me to go, so i went.. with a pretty much 0.01% functioning mind. hai. but i didnt regret going though, it really put my heart at ease after seeing that my ah ma's condition is better, like.. not the usual alittle bit better, but alot better. altho she's still in ICU.

thank God, and thank you all for your prayers... =)

she's able to talk a little and i guess, that's a major improvement. but nonetheless, must continuously pray for her. honestly, i dont know if i'm a fillial granddaughter cos i havent been visiting her due to school and many many activities. it's like, whenever my family goes to see her, i have smth on or smth happens and i can't make it with them.

=/ i dont know. i still wished i cld do smth more than just seeing her. but i know tt's the most i can do.

yeap. anyway, by the time i'm home after visiting her n eating dinner.... it was abt 10pm. too tired to do anything tt required thinking, i watched healing hands 3. and then no idea what i did, and i went to sleep.

the rest was great! i felt energized after it, but still. quite demoralized. i hope ill get over this phase soon. i want to be strong for my family, and my friends.

but i cant do this on my own, and i know who's help i need. the One from above....

i still thank God tho, for today and the time well spent with linzt to search for yvonne and ps hg's wedding present. :) i enjoyed it very much, and i didnt expect her to be free to accompany me.. so, i'm really grateful for linzt! :)

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