Just another ordinary miracle.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

4:32 PM

hello.. today i saw so many of my primary school classmates on friendster, and my immediate reaction was... omg! they all changed so much! except for the guys i guess. then i happily added all of them.. but suddenly it struck me that, sure it was good to "see" them again, but what was the purpose of adding them.. if i wasnt close to them at all in the past and now as well. and i was reminded that it was not the number of friends you have that mattered, but it was how many who would stand by you when you really need them.

to be honest, i think i can count how many of those friends i have, with one hand. now i'm wondering, am i such a friend to others as well? someone they can turn to when they really need to talk, when they need to cry, when they need a hug? and i think, i cant really answer that question.

life can be so strange at times. times when you really didnt need someone to talk to, many of them come and talk with you. times when you really needed someone, they are either not free or didnt realise that you were down.

not that i'm condemning anyone, i believe i am like that at times and admit that no one is perfect except God. but somehow i wished... that i could be a better friend. not just a da jie, but a friend. there is a difference, you know?

but ultimately, i still thank God. that when no one knows i'm crying... God saw my tears and listened to my sorrows. He has really done so much for us, beyond our imagination. I saw this quote from my friend's blog which was really true..

Look up at how vast the sky is.. yet, God's love for you is greater than that.