finished watch AQMFS recently. i realised 亚斯 is similar to me, in some sense la. although i'm not as confident or romantic and stuff, but the "personality" (the character's, not the actor's) is quite the same. (i'm being repetitive once again, sorry)

sometimes i may seem like a cold person (used to be ba), but in actual fact.. i'm not like that (maybe or maybe not- i still dont know myself well). and abt him and qing kong.. x) the only thing i can say is, i understand his feelings totally! 原来这都是依恋罢了。

i dont know how to continue this blog post alr.. LOL. but i've learnt something this week. (sudden slight inspiration) i asked God a qn, and i guess this was his answer to me.

for this week, i hvnt been able to really, feel God. but i do know he is with me. so even as i was pondering why he lets us feel this way sometimes, the answer was right in front of me. i saw this ant struggling with smth it's carrying, some other ants came along the way and tried to remove this thing(some small stick.. very small to me, but it's like 8 times the size of the ant). even with the help of 5 other ants (yes i went to count how many there was =x), they could not remove it.

the ant could only struggle with it, it looked like it was in pain. yet i could only stare at it.. what went through my head was, would removing it cause the death of the ant, if i didnt do it properly? or perhaps i should help it.. but what exactly would help the ant in that state?

so i decided to kinda scare off the other ants.. and sure enough, they left. but others came along to help, none could do anything. finally, i decided the ant has tried its best.. so i took a risk and plucked out the stick. thankfully nothing bad happened to the ant.

it's like tt with us sometimes as well. perhaps to us, removing the situations in our lives will be the best thing to us. but maybe God feels otherwise. maybe he knows that when he removes it from us when we are not ready, it can kill us. so he only removes it when he know that it's the right time.. not because he couldnt be bothered with us until then, but because he loves us so much.. that he only wants the best for us.

sometimes we feel tt he isnt watching over us, but in actual fact.. he is. just that he hasnt done anything yet, because he's a God who is never too early never too late and always just on time.