alright.. 3 days no post only and someone say my blog rotting liao -_- NO LOR. it is not!! xP

I'm still struggling with things. I know this struggle will come to an end soon, and am all the more careful not to do smth wrong and waste the efforts. HAIZ. on my last lap for this struggle, the last lap is the toughest. you're running out of strength, running out of breath, but you know you have to keep going. not by my strength but by God's! let His joy be my strength.. don't give up lydia. don't give up.

I just hate whtever I was feeling just now. a mixture of sadness, disappointment yet, relief.. but still saddened. spent some time alone becos it wasnt smth others cld help me with. it was smth b/w me and God. a test.. of faith/determination/my heart.

and I know.. after this is over. another one is heading my way soon. but I guess, like wht God told me. He will guide me and show me what to do. So do not worry nor think, cos the Lord will be your guide...

I must really pray tt I will hold on til the end...