I never. or rather didn't.. know that it existed. And now I know.

The next week's gonna be a busy one for me. Felt sad that my friend cldn't come over to watch Nobuta wo Produce together, been looking forward to it actually. didn't wanna make her feel bad and so I faked tt it was ok. doesn't really matter so much I guess, since she needs more rest too.

broke down because of something. I know I am being oversensitive again. and again, I keep it to myself. because I don't wanna burden others. am I stupid? I guess so. but tt's me. I just want to be me.

although I am struck down, I will not give up. I must persevere on, til the day I see and know tt I have done what God wants. and not what I want, or what others want. but what God wants.

not easy. definitely not. but I am not alone. helpless I am.. indeed. it doesn't matter anymore. because that is the truth anyway.

cos I am victorious in Christ, not by my own strength.